ACIM Potpourri

with kironJ

‘I rest in God today, and let Him work in me and through me,
while I rest in Him in quiet and perfect certainty’

Welcome to a page of ACIM writing

Please enjoy this selection of ideas and experiences arising from the study and practice of the Course

New writing will be added regularly

A Potpourri Introduction to A Course in Miracles

A Course in Miracles is a contemporary spiritual masterpiece first published in 1976. Jesus is widely understood to be the ‘voice’ of the Course, bringing his pure nondual message again in a form that we are now ready for. Christian terminology is used to teach non-Christian ideas; a brilliant device for the healing of our dualistic split minds which believe in sin and fear a punishing God. The Course also employs a sophisticated psychology to help us see how we are choosing separation from each other and from our Creator.
The book contains 3 volumes:
The Text, which presents the radical and profound metaphysics of the Course.
The Workbook, which sets out 365 Lessons to support the practical application of the metaphysical ideas.
The Manual for Teachers and Supplements, which further support study and practice of the Course’s thought system.

Here is the Course on the Course,
from each of the volumes of ACIM:
From the Preface:

‘The curriculum the Course proposes is carefully conceived and is explained, step by step, at both the theoretical and practical levels. It emphasizes application rather than theory, and experience rather than theology. It specifically states that “a universal theology is impossible, but a universal experience is not only possible, but necessary”.. It emphasizes that it is but one version of the universal curriculum.. There are many others.. They all lead to God in the end’.

From the Text:

‘The whole purpose of this course is to teach you that the ego is unbelievable and will forever be unbelievable’.
‘We are therefore embarking on an organized, well-structured and carefully planned programme aimed at learning how to offer the Holy Spirit everything you do not want. He knows what to do with it’.
‘This course is not beyond immediate learning, unless you believe that what God wills takes time. And this means only that you would rather delay the recognition that His Will is so’.
‘This course offers a very direct and a very simple learning situation, and provides the Guide Who tells you what to do. If you do it, you will see it works. Its results are more convincing than its words. They will convince you that the words are true’.

From the Workbook:

‘There is no world! This is the central thought the course attempts to teach’.
‘This course removes all doubt which you have interposed between Him (God) and your certainty of Him’.
‘This course does not attempt to take from you the little that you have. It does not try to substitute utopian ideas for satisfactions which the world contains. There are no satisfactions in the world’.

From the Manual for Teachers:

‘Forgive the world, and you will understand that everything that God created cannot have an end, and nothing He did not create is real. In this one sentence is our course explained. In this one sentence is our practicing given its one direction. And in this one sentence is the Holy Spirit’s whole curriculum specified exactly as it is’.
‘This course has come from him (Jesus) because his words have reached you in a language you can love and understand’.

Guidelines for studying the Workbook

‘It is the purpose of this workbook is to train your mind to think along the lines the text sets forth..
You are merely asked to apply the ideas as you are directed to do..
It is their use that will give them meaning to you, and will show you they are true.’ (W, Introduction)

It is impossible to get our studying wrong!
Every practice period will help, regardless of how we judge it.
Think of each Lesson as a gift to yourself, a tremendous stride towards peace.
Studying the Course is like learning a new language, with a twist..
A foreign language uses different words for the same content. The Course uses familiar terms, but they have a totally different meaning to the world’s meaning for them.
This can take some getting used to!

Spending time with the Course, building relationship with its Presence, becoming familiar with its Voice, helps us to access the part of our mind that already understands the teaching perfectly.
Bringing this understanding to our conscious awareness is the goal. We’re not expected to have it now.
The Lessons are designed with our current lack of understanding in mind.

It’s very helpful to read the Introduction to the Workbook regularly, as a reminder of how the Course would like us to approach the Lessons.

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Practice welcoming the encouragement that is given to us in the Lessons; much is given.

We don’t need to accept the ideas, only allow the questioning process of all we thought we knew and understood.
Simply allow space in our minds for the ideas, be open and receptive, and then they can reach beyond our conceptual thinking.

We are learning to soften our fixed meanings and free our minds of false ideas.
We are asked to develop willingness to accept the Holy Spirit’s help in this.

Alongside our insecurities about not fully intellectually understanding the Lessons comes an entrenched belief that we do understand ourselves and our world. Our physical identity is built on understanding the world’s ways and laws.
Studying the Course helps us come to a new and clear realisation of what is true and what isn’t, and what we innately know as a Child of God.

We need to practice every step. All of them are needed to comprehensively undo our use of the ego’s thought system.
We need much reinforcement in this undoing of our current way of seeing and for the opening to new perceptions.
Patience with ourselves, and with the Course’s method of repetition, is a wonderful attitude to adopt.

It’s best not to look ahead to future Lessons, or refer back to Lessons already covered.
Stay focused on the Lesson of the day, and trust that this is quite sufficient.
The Course has been described as a symphony of ideas, and they will be brought again and again to our attention.

As we study, our life experiences will provide us with the perfect practice for the day’s Lesson.
It’s helpful to bear this in mind, and be grateful for the supreme intelligence that is overseeing our studying.

We are working on forming new habits of disciplined spiritual practice which will serve us for the rest of our lives.
It is worth the effort!

There is a difference between genuine lack of time to practice on occasions, and a lack of willingness to practice disguised as using distractions as an excuse. A good approach is to be gentle with ourselves always, while choosing radical honesty about our practice.

The ego will try to hijack our studying at every turn and in all ways conceivable.
Common ways are:

forgetting
being too busy
perfectionism (can’t go on to the next Lesson until I’ve fully understood the current one)
analysis of the ideas
deciding we’ll do the Lessons our way rather than follow the instructions
just reading the Lessons rather than practicing them
deciding some Lessons aren’t important/interesting and paying less attention to these
deciding some Lessons are wonderful and delaying the process by spending lots of time with these
resisting the structure of the Lessons, not wanting to be told what to do
wanting immediate intellectual understanding and letting lack of understanding discourage us
deciding we’re just not up to it

Quiet morning time to practice is essential to establish our mental set for the day, before the mind gets cluttered with the day’s activities.
The Course says ideally to take this time as soon as we get up, but it also advises to practice when few distractions are anticipated and when we feel reasonably ready. We can but do our best, in our circumstances.

As our world is negated, our mind starts searching for a new truth. If we give the space, the Holy Spirit will provide this new truth. We don’t need to be concerned about anything but allowing the undoing and choosing the willingness to be shown. We don’t need to try and ’empty our minds’, but simply be present, observe and practice.
The truth will naturally dawn on our minds as we follow the exercises and expand our willingness.

Our resistance and any uncomfortable thoughts and feelings that surface during our practicing are all part of studying the Course. ACIM works in us to bring to light what we have hidden/disguised/dissociated from, so that we can choose healing and let go of what is hurting us.
Acknowledging thoughts and feelings is central to our progress, and prevents a log jam of resistance building up.
Celebrating the powerful invitations to heal will be a great help.

If resistance is very strong, try just sitting with hands on the closed book, asking for the Holy Spirit’s support.
The Course advises us not to fight ourselves, so if strong resistance continues then it could be that we’re simply not ready at that time.

Any perceived failures and inadequacies with the Course are precisely what we need to look at to find peace and healing. They will represent existing false beliefs we have about ourselves. The ego will want to find us guilty and persuade us we’re poor students.
A central part of studying the Course is to practice not believing this, or anything our ego says about ACIM.

The Course also encourages us to make our best efforts to follow the Lesson instructions as accurately as possible. Saying ‘we can’t get it wrong’ could be an ego tactic, rather than gentleness to ourselves.
Practicing will increase our ability to discern the difference.

Two quotes to give us all encouragement:

‘Each gift to Him will be multiplied a thousandfold and tens of thousands more.
And when returned to you, it will surpass in might the little gift you gave
as much as does the radiance of the sun
outshine the tiny gleam a firefly makes an uncertain moment and goes out!’ W172

Jesus says, ‘I would not ask you to do things you cannot do,
and it is impossible that I could do things you cannot do..
nothing can prevent you from doing exactly what I ask,
and everything argues for you doing it.’ T159

ACIM Stories & Experiences

Please enjoy this selection of stories & experiences arising from the study and practice of the Course

A COLD CLASSROOM: JOINING OR OBLIVION? (10th May 2022)
Yesterday was a deeply healing day, wishing to share..
Overnight, Sunday/Monday, I was in an almost comatose sleep, waking sometimes to shivering and aching. In the morning I felt weak and just wanted to go back to sleep. I had a 1-1 and a group session planned, and wasn’t at all sure I’d be in a fit state to lead them.

 

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I did go back to sleep 4 times during the day, for an hour each time. The striking thing was observing the overwhelming ego desire for oblivion. Before one of the times, I tried to stay awake and join minds with Jesus, which offers the greatest restoration. No, just fell asleep..
In worldly terms we’d say – of course, you’ve got a fluey cold, your body needs sleep.. but I recognised that as an excuse, a false reason, disguising the attraction to death, the seduction of oblivion. Through listening to the ego we make an identity and world that is full of stress and strain and sickness, and then the ego comes up with rogue solutions to block out these stresses and strains – sleep can be used this way, and then ultimately death of the body.
The group session last night was part of the Ken Wapnick series focusing on resistance. Ken makes powerful and eloquent calls for us to do nothing but look at the resistance with the Holy Spirit and feel its effects. So, applying this yesterday, I didn’t try and get ‘kironJ’ ready to lead the sessions, but allowed a deep looking at my choice for and attraction to sickness.
‘One need but say, “There is no gain at all to me in this” and he is healed.. The resistance to recognising this is enormous, because the existence of the world as you perceive it depends on the body being the decision maker’.
Yesterday was a supreme classroom in which to feel this resistance.. It may seem easy to say – there’s no gain in sickness, but is it so easy to say there’s no gain in being ‘kironJ’ in a physical world? They are the same decision, and I now feel closer to saying ‘no gain’ to both..
It was also a beautiful opportunity to welcome Spirit to speak through me, and not be concerned about the apparent weakness in kironJ. Of course, perfect timing.. with 30 minutes to go before the group session I felt a wave of strength come through, and during the session I shared of my healing day, which was appreciated..
A footnote about sleep.. someone asked in the session if sleep is always of the ego. No.. the Holy Spirit can use everything we’ve made, and if we dedicate our sleep to holy purpose, to our mind resting in God, nothing to do with relief from illusory stresses and strains, then much healing can come of it.
Last night I could happily put my sleep to this purpose.. whew!

 

WHY FOLLOW THE NEWS? (14th April 2022)

In the support session on Monday a participant, I’ll call her P, shared that she is still troubled by the Russia Ukraine war, but that she is also attracted to the news about it. P asked for suggestions, a healing process..

 

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What came to mind immediately was to suggest not watching the news for a day, and watch her mind instead in response to no news. P’s first reaction was ‘no, no, no, anything but this..’. Ego loud and clear, protecting its place in P’s mind..

P went on to say that she’d give a day off a go, and our group discussion went on to the general issue of watching the news. Reasons given for following the news were ‘needing to be in touch with what’s going on’ and ‘I feel a duty to know how others are suffering’. This is all ego..
Who is it that needs to be in touch, and just what is ‘going on’?
Who is it that feels the duty, and what is the ‘suffering’?
The answers I offer to these questions:
The mind choosing separation needs its projections/things going on in this world to keep the belief in a personal identity.
The mind choosing to deny that it is suffering through its choice for separation needs to see suffering outside of itself, in others.
Following the news about war is a strong strategy for the ego, which can convincingly claim there really are innocent victims, aggressors and a need to be emotionally caught up in the unfolding story of struggle.

Turning to Spirit and desiring to remember the Truth, beyond all good/bad/tragedy/suffering, will bring peace to our war torn split minds, and allow a perfect showing of what needs to be done in the dream. Sometimes Spirit may guide us to watch the news, sometimes not, but either way it will be for the holy purpose of healing our minds and not in response to the hallucination of a conflicted and violent world.

 

RELEASING AN EGO STRANGLEHOLD (24th March 2022)

 Sitting amid miracles and wishing to share..

 

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In the kironJ dream, skiing has been a prominent subplot. Young adulthood saw skiing as specialness supreme, offering freedom and excitement and evidence of being ‘good at something’. Then came a long gap, when it was viewed as a cherished memory and unlikely to come my way again due to ill health and then ill wealth..

Last May I put ski boots on again for the first time in 26 years, at the local dry ski slope, with no more aim than to gently prepare for a family ski holiday. By last summer, the aim had extended to applying for the training to become a ski instructor – a nationally accredited one year course. Since last summer I’ve been on skis a lot, unlearning the old way of skiing and learning the new way. Of course an analogy for unlearning the ego..
This activity has brought me face to face with much ego thinking!
I’ve been steadily undoing the specialness, and dedicating skiing – and the potential to instruct –  to holy purpose. Many ideas have been coming about how I could bring the mind level into ski instruction, and my heart has soared..
On Tuesday we had the second part of the assessment, a practical, and since then the wait for the decision about who would be accepted for the training
In meditation this morning a very painful limiting belief popped into awareness.. a belief of being a ‘dunce’; that compared to others I had no talent and would forever be stupid and ‘less than’.
(The ski class last night was a perfect representation of this belief – I simply couldn’t do what was being asked of the class, and more than this, there was a self-sabotaging wish not to comply. I wanted to be incapable!).
I had a panorama of endless dreams of underlying ‘duncehood’, and either caving into this belief, or strenuously trying to show otherwise.. both ways keeping the belief intact. By seeing all this and feeling the acute pain of it, the stranglehold loosened.. just a dream.. as God’s Child I can’t possibly be ‘less than’..
A short while after the meditation, I received the news that I’ve been accepted for the ski instructor training. I couldn’t stop crying..

A miracle.. this ‘special’ activity now being re-purposed. A new panorama of powerful spiritual opportunity opens up as the belief in ‘duncehood’ wanes. I can be in the role for healing and blessing, not for the purpose of trying to fix inadequacy (or succumbing to it). I am so grateful for what I sense will be ‘ACIM outreach’; another strand of supporting others to go beyond ego limitation, and so go beyond the ego in this mind. 

ANOTHER STEPPINGSTONE TO NOT WORSHIPPING THE GOD OF SICKNESS
(26th January 2022)
In the last 36 hours I’ve been graced with a perfect steppingstone to not worshipping the god of sickness.
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Overnight Monday/Tuesday I started to feel weak and nauseous, and by the morning I couldn’t get out of bed for more than a few minutes at a time.
My son emailed to say that his husband and son had tested positive for Covid, and I wondered if I had Covid too. I spent the day with Jesus and Bill, being present, observing everything.
It was such a wonderful opportunity to feel the symptoms of nausea, weakness, revived reactions to the Covid jab – so convincing, debilitating and so ‘real’! –  and put alongside them the Course thinking – my mind is choosing this, my mind desires to feel awful, this is guilt laid on the body, this is what the ego thought system really rests on, it has no power, it’s not real no matter how real it feels..
Overnight last night, I experienced being in a titanic battle between choosing Light and choosing the sick attraction to darkness. I saw Jesus, Bill and Mother Mary as Lights above me, holding me as the battle raged. Part of my mind simply refused to identify with the Light. This describes it exactly:
‘An unforgiving thought does many things. In frantic action it pursues its goal, twisting and overturning what it sees as interfering with its chosen path.. It sets about its furious attempts to smash reality, without concern for anything that would appear to pose a contradiction to its point of view’.
This was ‘push comes to shove’ territory.. just what do I want to be true? Sickness is not accepting my true Identity, and this is how ghastly it feels, and yet I was fighting and fighting it..
I kept turning to Spirit and asking for the strength of my Mighty Companions to make their decision..
After a while, I saw myself as a 4th Light, in a ring of 4 Lights above the ‘sick one’. My identity had shifted. I settled and eased, repeating again and again – my single purpose is to know myself as the Light that transcends all ideas of sickness.

This morning the symptoms were milder and I could get out of bed and stay up for the day. I did a 2nd Covid test, again negative. I’m so grateful for my Mighty Companions and that I could set the goal of healing at the outset. Not once did I feel a victim or sorry for myself, even with next week’s ski trip being cancelled because the family have Covid (mild symptoms). The treasure is practicing not bowing down to the god of sickness.

ENJOYING FOOD BLOCKING HEALING (18th January 2022)
We had some deep looking in the Manual for Teachers session last night, studying ‘How is Healing Accomplished?’
A sticking point for one participant, I’ll call him P, was food. P said, ‘while I’m here, I want to be able to enjoy food’. This seems harmless enough, but contained in this wish is the whole desire for separation..
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A quote from the section, to give some context:
‘The world does nothing to him. He only thought it did. Nor does he do anything to the world, because he was mistaken about what it is. Herein is the release from guilt and sickness both, for they are one. Yet to accept this release, the insignificance of the body must be an acceptable idea’.
If we give power to food to give us pleasure, we are giving significance to the body, and reality to the world. We’re saying – I am this person (not my Self) and this image/food (not God/Truth) will make me happy.
In this case, P’s mind is trying to enjoy separation, and the means is a story of a person enjoying food.
The ego won’t like this seeing!
Body appetites and seeking their satisfaction is such a seductive ego strategy to keep us bound to the world. P had said, ‘while I’m here..’. Well, we will continue to ‘be here’ while we choose to value any part of our human experience for individual gain. And with valuing body experience comes the guilt, sickness, pain, disaster..
P asked, ‘so do I have to just have bread and water?’
Unlikely.. this is about repurposing our eating, not about which items of food we eat. It’s about not eating for the pleasure of the person but giving the whole issue of food to the Holy Spirit and ask that it serves holy purpose. We don’t actually need to eat (the body is a projection of the mind), but our belief that we do is so very entrenched that the Holy Spirit will help us eat without fuss; just what is needed to fuel the body well so we can practice forgiveness.
Opening to the Course teaching that ‘all pleasure comes from doing God’s Will’ is a profound path of healing.
Ending with another quote from this fabulous section:
‘Place cause and effect in their true sequence (God is the Cause of my happiness; Enjoying food is an effect of my desire for separation) in one respect, and the learning will generalise and transform the world. The transfer value of one true idea has no end or limit. The final outcome of this lesson is the remembrance of God’.
So, changing our tastes from eating for personal pleasure to eating because we enjoy following the guidance of Spirit will lead us God.
That’s healing!
NO BIG OR LITTLE PROBLEMS, ONLY PREFERENCES (9th January 2022)

In yesterday’s workshop, A New Year Dive into Healing, one aspect of the teaching we looked at seemed to strike a particular chord, so sharing here.. ‘All that a hierarchy of illusions can show is preference, not reality’. Saying more..

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Our minds have made some problems to be ‘difficult to fix’ because we want some projections to be beyond forgiveness. Our choice for separation and our personal identity depends on projections, which we call problems and other people’s wrongdoing. The ego, ever ingenious, makes some problems that are easy to resolve so we keep hope that this world can come good, and some problems that aren’t easy to resolve so that we keep either trying to fix them or bemoaning that we can’t (either way we keep attention in the world, the ego’s main aim).

Each mind has a preference for particular easy/difficult issues. We also have common ideas about easy/difficult. These too are preferences, although it doesn’t seem like this in our experience. For example, a cold and cancer are equally unreal and equally amenable to healing. Our minds are colluding with each other in the belief that cancer is a serious illness and so it serves as a powerful anchor in the ego thought system. Think of all the cancer research, cancer experience, cancer care, cancer fears..

‘Illusions are illusions and are false. Your preference gives them no reality. Not one is true in any way, and all must yield with equal ease to what God gave as answer to them all’.
The answer is not to tell those with ‘serious problems’ that their problems aren’t serious or even real.
The answer is to realise the sickness is in our minds, for seeing our brother in Christ as a person with problems.
‘All sickness comes from separation. When the separation is denied, it goes’.
A participant asked yesterday: Can it really be that simple?
The Course says yes.
One way of working with this is to be vigilant for our illusion preferences, and change our self-talk.
An example that cropped up yesterday –
‘The price of petrol (gas) is shooting up and I have no control over that. It’s a big problem’.
This can be seen very differently with Spirit:
‘The price of petrol (gas) is my preference for a difficult problem and I’m choosing this difficult problem so that I can be this person in the world’
With the Holy Spirit seeing, we claim our power to choose again and accept true healing of our minds. Then the petrol issue will have a new purpose of being a forgiveness classroom. Peace will come when we see that ‘petrol’, ‘cars’, ‘lack of money’ are separation symbols in the mind – ideas leave not their source. Then our circumstances will reflect peace too. Maybe the need for a car will go, maybe more money will come..
‘Salvation, perfect and complete, asks but a little wish that what is true be true; a little willingness to overlook what is not there; a little sigh that speaks for Heaven as a preference to this world that death and desolation seem to rule. In joyous answer will creation rise within you, to replace the world you see with Heaven, wholly perfect and complete’.
In great gratitude to all who attended yesterday. I hope this post will help us have a preference for Heaven, rather than a preference for big and little problems.
Amen!

All quotes are from ‘The Laws of Healing’, Chapter 26, section 7

LONDON SIGHTS AND A NEW PERCEPTION (9th November 2021)

In last night’s support session a participant asked for some insight into how to be in his sightseeing trip to London today. He remembered me talking about going to the Wimbledon tennis a few years ago with the intention of seeing it wasn’t real, and said he didn’t want to spend all his day saying ‘this isn’t real’!

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ACIM simply isn’t going to budge from its message of ‘illusions are illusions are illusions’ – the ‘happy’ ones, the ‘interesting’ ones, the ‘satisfying’ ones..
‘Every illusion is an assault on truth and does violence to the idea of love’.
‘Enjoying ourselves as an individual’ is a choice for illusions, an attack on truth, and the result will be guilt, which will call for punishment, which brings suffering. Always. The only way out is to dedicate our experiences to holy purpose, for the healing of our minds. I offered this suggestion to the participant:
Look at everything you see as one – the sights of the tour and the litter and the homeless and the traffic congestion and the old/sick bodies etc and practice acknowledging they all go together as one choice for illusions. This would be holy purpose for his visit to London.
The profound and miraculous teaching from the Course is that we can’t desire the ‘lovely things’ of the world without unconsciously desiring the ‘upsetting things’.
As we desire, so we experience.
‘How surely, therefore, must the real world come to greet the holy sight of anyone who takes the Holy Spirit’s purpose as his goal for seeing. And he cannot fail to look upon what Christ would have him see’.

What holy sights might there be for this participant to see in his trip today. 

WHAT HAPPENS AT A FUNERAL (28th September 2021)
A participant in the support session yesterday, I’ll call her P, asked for support for attending a funeral. She didn’t want to get sucked into ego thinking. Funerals can be very powerful classrooms for healing, if we dedicate our experience to holy purpose. The attraction of death has centre stage, disguised amid the weeping and sorrow. 
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P has a wonderful opportunity to observe her thinking and beliefs as she mingles with others engulfed in the sadness of a ‘life cut short’ and concerns for the ‘family left behind’.
This isn’t about P being stoic or denying her human responses, but witnessing her mind to know better how real the dream still seems to be. P will then be in a position to ask the Holy Spirit for the healing of these persisting beliefs in the ego. The Holy Spirit will show what P needs to say and to whom, so that she is appropriate and kind, without colluding with her brothers’ dreams.
The ego will love funerals, basking and bathing in the worshipping of death that will typically occur. The separate self depends on death for its survival (yes, insanity..), and a gathering which reinforces the belief in death, where all the conversations will spring from the ‘reality’ of someone dying, will bring much ego rejoicing and relief. Whew! How far from the decision making mind that could see the impossibility of bodies.
Some quotes on death from the Course:
‘Without the idea of death there is no world’
‘Death is the central dream form which all illusions stem.  Is it not madness to think of life as being born, ageing, losing vitality, and dying in the end’

‘It is the one idea which underlies all feelings that are not supremely happy. A slight discomfort, the merest frown, acknowledge death. It is the alarm to which you give response of any kind that is not perfect joy. It is but an idea, irrelevant to what is seen as physical’

PERFECT PATHS OF CORRECTION (17th September 2021)
I was in contact with someone this week, I’ll call him T, who has an approach to ACIM that is quite different from the one I’m guided to take. It set me musing.. students are following this teaching in so many ways, and it seems to me this is perfect! 
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All spiritual paths are paths of correction, helping us to correct our mistaken choice for the ego. At the level of form we have expressed this mistaken choice in a myriad of ways, so we need a myriad forms of guidance to meet us where we think we are and guide us back to the memory of One Mind, One Truth.
If we’re in Berlin and wishing to travel to London we’ll need a different journey plan to someone in New York who’s going to London. Same destination, but different routes. If we’ve come from an atheist upbringing/understanding we’ll need a different form of healing to someone with a Christian upbringing/understanding..
I see it as a strength that the Course can be helpful to students through a wide variety of teaching/sharing means and modes. I sense that T might see it as something that would best be changed. And this difference is again all part of the brilliance of how ACIM is reaching us. I’m right to be following my way, T is right to be following his way, you are right to be following your way.. they are all our perfect paths of correction, all leading to the Heaven we never left..
MIRACLE WORKING (2nd September 2021)
A friend, I’ll call her P, has just told me of a recent miracle working experience which has deeply inspired me, and so sharing..
P was called in to see a man who was on ‘death’s door’. He was close to organ failure and the vital signs were very weak; he had no awareness of P sitting with him. P asked Spirit how to be in this situation, and was given the message to accept the Atonement for him, to see him as perfect and beyond the physical situation.
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P found that she could do this with absolute certainty (P to me: I ‘accepted the Atonement on his behalf and asked for a miracle, to see him as perfect and that his dream was beyond what was appearing.’)
After a while he suddenly ‘came to’ and said he felt different, felt better.
P left, knowing the miracle had occurred, and was able to let go of the physical outcome.
During the next couple of weeks P felt this man’s presence 4 times, on each occasion sensing that he had fallen back into darkness and was calling to her at the mind level for help. Each time she joined with him, again offering him the miracle of certainty of his Truth.
Now the man has no physical symptoms at all. He seems to be stabilised in his attraction to Life rather than death.
Unsurprisingly, P has been profoundly affected by this experience! Of course it will mirror P’s journey of back and forth into attraction to death and then back to Life. When I spoke to her on Monday I witnessed a quiet joy and certainty that I wanted to rest in, to stay with, join with. It was very powerful!

I’m so very grateful for this connection and join P in saying – what else is there but to claim this certainty through the miracle and to share it?

SKIING FOR HEALING (16th July 2021)

I’m having a bumper package of healing through my recent ski experiences, so thought I’d share..
Setting the scene – I hadn’t put on skis for 26 years until 6 weeks ago, and now I’m looking to become a dry ski slope instructor.
How to ski, not to mention the skis themselves, has changed considerably since my younger adult passion for this sport. I’m having to unlearn all I knew and learn a new way.
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It’s a powerful and perfect reflection of unlearning the ego thought system and learning to think with Spirit.
‘Muscle memory’ (ego thinking) has stored the old way – for example, a pole plant is the signal for an upward movement and unweighting one of the skis. My instructor said this will be difficult to unlearn because it is so ingrained.
Ditto – the ego is a challenge to unlearn because it is so hard wired into our thinking..
In my younger days skiing was all about specialness, and now it is dedicated to holy purpose and the healing of my mind. The practice on the slope is to be present with Presence, let the thoughts of ‘I can’t do this, I’ll never be good enough to be an instructor, I want to look good..’ float up and to recognise them as ego (and therefore illusions without meaning).
In the private lesson last Sunday, the instructor ‘deconstructed’ my skiing, and gave all focus to strengthening my foundation (downhill ski). From this foundation, all else will follow.
Ditto, the foundation of following the Holy Spirit.
So, back to basics with lots of snowplough turns.. which I practiced on my own yesterday. In my younger days I’d have felt almost humiliated, but yesterday I was celebrating the opportunity to develop this firm foundation.
I’ve been told it’s a realistic goal to work towards instructor training in March/April, with the next yearly intake at the local dry ski slope. I wonder what miracle working might be possible in this newly shown part of my dream..

‘The bringer of all miracles has need you receive them first, and thus become the joyous giver of what you received’.

CELEBRATING CLEARING (29th June 2021)
It is a season of extensive clearing for many.. It seems there are new and daunting challenges rising, or old persistent challenges coming once again, but that places us on the timeline with a future that’s always presenting problems.
We can see it differently!
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We can see ourselves as stationary, quiet, peaceful, connected, with a clear choice for complete healing and a glad acceptance that this choice brings the clearing of all our separation beliefs and fears and fantasies. From this stable witnessing position we can see that nothing new is happening. We are simply allowing into awareness what we have previously hidden from ourselves – the huge and harrowing cost of desiring to be an individual in a physical world. We recognise there is no other way to freedom than to see what we have made through the eyes of Spirit and realise the extent of its insanity.
So, as we experience ‘the challenges’, we can celebrate the opportunity to see what once scared us are really only clouds, with no power or meaning or reality. How incredibly liberating! This time round we can experience the challenges as an hallucination! And also a classroom for healing our mind.
What do we truly desire?
This is a profound and essential question to ask ourselves.
A more comfortable illusion?
Salvation, but not just yet?
Our special relationships kept intact?
I extend blessings to all who are asking these questions of themselves and who are willing to be shown that challenges are clouds.
A current one for me is being told by the dental hygienist yesterday that I need to see a gum specialist about a growing pocket under a wisdom tooth.
It’s a picture of guilt, a cloud to walk through with Spirit.
I hope these quotes on illusions from ACIM will be supportive:
‘Freedom from illusions lies only in not believing them’.
‘All illusions are investments. They will last as long as you value them’.
‘Eyes accustomed to illusions must be shown that what they look upon is false’.
‘You must look upon your illusions and not keep them hidden’.
HAPPINESS AND DEATH WISHES (13th April 2021)
In the support group yesterday, we held our sharing in the idea that perfect happiness comes only from our connection with Spirit, and to experience stable happiness we need to see everyone as the same. The sharing was rich and deep: here are some examples.
One participant asked why she felt happy at ACIM gatherings, if happiness doesn’t come from anything in this world. This is sneaky ego still at work, having us believe there’s cause in the world. In the belief that spiritual gatherings can give us something positive comes the belief that ‘undesirable’ physical happenings can take away our happiness.
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We’re looking to the world to determine our state of mind, and this is a choice to reject truth. What’s actually going on is that the participant is opening to Spirit, feeling the happiness that this brings, and the picture that her mind is generating is ‘ACIM gatherings’. The healing and learning is that her mind is in charge, and can always make the choice for connection and happiness.
Another shared about a very challenging Easter trip to stay with her parents, and the seeming choice about when to see them again, asking if she could just stay at home and quietly potter in her garden, avoiding all the difficulties. We looked at simplifying this to a choice to listen and follow the Holy Spirit, without preference as to how often she visits her parents. If she’s with her parents, this is one aspect of her separation thinking, providing forgiveness opportunities: if she’s in her garden this is another aspect of her separation thinking, also providing forgiveness opportunities. The same! If we listen and follow, Spirit will lead us through the perfect rhythm of our healing and the healing of all brothers in our circumstances too. ‘My parents need me’ is an ego cry, and it’s so powerful to look at our ego need to be needed!
The last example of sharing is from a participant talking about a friend who is ‘traumatised’. The participant is reluctant to invite the Holy Spirit into the relationship, fearing the friend may commit suicide. This is such a clear example of believing that salvation brings loss and suffering! We explored some more, and the participant shared that she also sometimes wishes the friend would die so that she would be relieved of the challenging friendship. It’s truly wonderful that this could be shared; the death wish is central to our ego thinking and identity, and we do need to acknowledge this before we can heal from it. The fear of the friend’s suicide and wishing them dead are 2 sides of the same coin. Of course, the friend disappearing from the participant’s life wouldn’t help at all with the guilt in her mind that has generated this image of trauma. The friend is the same as her, a Child of God dreaming, yet still peaceful and whole and not traumatised. This is the knowing that will heal both.
A participant emailed me just after the session, saying ‘wow, what a night!’.
I agree, and I’m very grateful.
UPDATE OF THE TALE OF THE COVID JAB (8th April 2021)

Another healing invitation is revealing itself in this Covid vaccination experience, and I hope it’s a useful follow up to my last writing.
It’s become clear that there was an undetected belief in my mind about the high value of having a ‘sensitive body’. It’s an ancient defense strategy that’s been employed by my mind through countless lifetimes/dreams: if I’m sensitive/weak/fragile then I can’t be called upon to do things I don’t want to do. It’s been a guaranteed opt out clause and coping mechanism within the chaotic world of illusions.

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Like all our defenses, it doesn’t work! It left me with far more stories of struggle than if I’d faced whatever it was that ‘I didn’t want to do’. From the ego point of view it’s worked brilliantly, keeping the body identification strong.
So, to this current episode.. I’ve unconsciously chosen a story of ‘big reaction to the Covid vaccination’ to support the ‘sensitive body’ belief. There is great healing on offer here! I have an opportunity to change my mind and recognise there is zero value in projecting a sensitive body, and total value in ‘accepting my part in God’s plan for salvation’ (today’s Lesson).
‘We have a mighty purpose to fulfill, and have been given everything we need with which to reach the goal. Not one mistake stands in our way’.
This sensitive body belief had to come to the surface to be healed. If I’d decided against the vaccination, my mind would have generated another ‘sensitive body’ story, with the same opportunity for healing if given to the Holy Spirit.
The issue really isn’t to have the vaccination or not. It’s do I want complete healing or not?
If we ask for complete healing, that’s what we’ll receive through looking on all our guilt and choosing again.
If we ask for a more comfortable illusion, that may be what we receive for a while, but it will incur guilt and so more painful illusions will follow.
Today’s Lesson says, ‘We dedicate ourselves to truth today, and to salvation as God planned it be’.
I’ve found that this episode has brought a deeper dedication. Amen to that.
TALE OF A COVID JAB (3rd April 2021)

I had the Covid vaccination on Wednesday, and it’s been a miraculous experience, wishing to share.
I wasn’t planning to have the vaccination, but an invitation to go to Santorini in July with my son and family brought me to a new decision. The proposed holiday has holy purpose, so I need to be able to go.
By Wednesday I was feeling fully aligned with Spirit on the safety and appropriateness of having the vaccination. It was all easy and efficient at the Covid centre, but within a few minutes of the jab I could sense the vaccine spreading round my body. My system felt deeply compromised, and I was glad it was only a short walk home. 

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The following 2 hours were very challenging, inviting a concerted focus on Light, Jesus with me throughout. Past lives/dreams of catching ‘deadly diseases’, and dying from them, came rushing to the surface, and it quickly became clear that this was the healing gift of the jab. A familiar sense of powerlessness and defeat swirled around my mind, but this time I gradually found a footing with Spirit in the awful blackness. I couldn’t feel a connection with Light, but I could keep turning to the metaphysics of the Course and the mind of Jesus, repeating and repeating ‘The Light is Supreme’. After a couple of hours, there was a shift and an easing, and I felt more secure with Spirit again.
Whew! Such gratitude for that chunk of guilt coming up to be let out!
The feeling of being compromised has come back a few times, in waves, but not nearly as strong as in those first couple of hours, and there have been no more past life/dream experiences. I’ve been taking a homeopathic ‘vaccination kit’ of remedies, and I’m sure this has given ‘tangible form’ to my choice for healing. So grateful that I was led to this use of magic.
This episode has given me a new appreciation of the utter ghastliness of the ego thought system, and the total supremacy of Light and our Truth. I’m smiling and smiling at the timing, of this happening in the lead up to the Easter celebration of the mind’s resurrection.
THE MIRACLE OF GIVING UP OPINIONS (16th March 2021)

We had a beautiful study group yesterday, focused on the Manual for Teachers section 18, ‘How is Correction Made?’ A participant, I’ll call her D, shared that she decided to give up all opinions about what her husband does and doesn’t do, after becoming aware of just how many sneaky judgements were leaking out from her. D delightedly reported to us that it’s been a huge relief to give up these opinions and that their marriage has never been happier! Her experience is now of living with a beautiful being and it’s all so much easier.
How inspiring!

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D demonstrated – taught – the central theme of the section: true correction is of our own mistakes and nothing to do with putting others right. Another participant shared deeply after this about a choice to change her relationship with her daughter. At the moment there always seems to be conflict.
From the section:
‘God’s teachers’ major lesson is to learn how to react to magic thoughts wholly without anger.. Anger but screeches, ‘Guilt is real’. Reality is blotted out as this insane belief is taken as replacement for God’s Word’.
A major lesson indeed, and our family relationships are often the most powerful classrooms for it.
Another participant was full of wry smiles as he quoted:
‘If he senses even the faintest hint of irritation in himself as he responds to anyone, let him instantly realise that he has made an interpretation that is not true’.
Hum.. the bar is set high in the Course.. and that is why it is a course in MIRACLES!
This is the section that contains the fundamental and well-known statement:
‘The sole responsibility of God’s teacher is to accept the Atonement for himself’. Atonement meaning the correction of our errors..
What clear and loving direction.
I’D LOVE TO SEE ALL STUDENTS TRY THIS! (29th March 2021)

Douglas Crawford and I led a combination workshop on Saturday, with breathwork and ACIM brought together to such healing and miraculous effect.
Some feedback:
‘I’m writing to thank you and Douglas for an amazingly different and exciting workshop. You both presented ways of working with ACIM in a totally new light for me. I’ve been studying the Course for ten years and embrace it as my path, but l felt today’s blend of breath work and penetrating self-enquiry gave me new and unforeseen tools to deepen my understanding and strengthen my resolve’.
Having supported some of Douglas’ rebirthing work before, in the physical, it was truly wonderful to witness its releasing power over Zoom. Participants lay down and turned their cameras so they could be seen; all sound was on, and Douglas’ calm and assured presence held them through the process. Earlier I had led a relationship contemplation, which brought many issues to the surface. All ripe to be taken into the breathwork..
I see profound healing on offer through this vehicle of rebirthing and ACIM. The breathwork encourages release of entrenched patterns and pain, way below conscious awareness, and ACIM gives perfect context and support for the choice to transcend our patterns and pain. Douglas and I will be offering this combo again!

DEEP MOVEMENTS OF DISINTEGRATION (14th March 2021)

Following a powerful clearing overnight, indeed deep movements of disintegration, I feel inspired to quote 2 paragraphs from today’s Lesson.
These paragraphs graphically describe the insanity of this world and just how extensive our healing needs to be if we are to come to peace. Last night was an experience of securely choosing to be one mind with Jesus, and to let ALL else go. I could feel the ego thought system falling apart, in total disarray. Miraculously, Spirit held me in the centre of the storming, where I could rest in the knowing that we have to witness the chaos of separation before we’ll truly decide for God.

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Lesson 73, ‘I will there be light’, paragraphs 2 and 3:
Idle wishes and grievances are partners or co-makers in picturing the world you see. The wishes of the ego gave rise to it, and the ego’s need for grievances, which are necessary to maintain it, peoples it with figures that seem to attack you and call for ‘righteous’ judgment. These figures become the middlemen the ego employs to traffic in grievances. They stand between your awareness and your brothers’ reality. Beholding them, you do not know your brothers or your Self.
Your will is lost to you in this strange bartering, in which guilt is traded back and forth, and grievances increase with each exchange. Can such a world have been created by the Will the Son of God shares with his Father? Did God create disaster for His Son? Creation is the Will of Both together. Would God create a world that kills Himself?’
HOW RESTFUL TO SIMPLY OBSERVE (17th February 2021)

In yesterday’s The Script is Written session, someone asked about the tempo of the healing process and wondered if there is some guidance on this. She’s been working hard, listening back to previous sessions, journaling, studying the teaching on time..
ACIM teaches that the world is over, and we are mentally reviewing the illusion of separation. It’s a closed system, nothing new will happen, our only choice is which inner teacher to watch the movie with and which parts of the script to review.
Whew! Going deep into this understanding will take us out of all the pressure to push through forgiveness opportunities, to strive for healing, to awaken.. The most powerful position we can adopt is at the quiet centre, observing, re-interpreting with Spirit, flowing within Joining, remembering always we are watching a film of what hasn’t happened. We will all choose, and in fact have already chosen, to stop this observation and remember we are in Peace. How restful is that..

THE MIGHTY HOLY USE OF METAPHYSICS (30th January 2021)

I’m becoming really clear about the difference between studying the metaphysics of the Course with the ego and the Holy Spirit! Preparation for the ‘Metaphysical Jamboree’ workshop in April is proving to be an unexpectedly powerful experience, so feeling inspired to share..
Focus on the metaphysics can be discounted as leading us to intellectualisation, and can be seen as less important than the practice – or even a distraction from it. Yes, we can easily get stuck in our heads if the ego has hopped on board, urging us to ‘know the Course, chapter and verse’, or struggle with each sentence’s meaning.

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However, if we contemplate the ideas with the Holy Spirit, they become potent door openers in our minds. This is uber practical! It allows a deeper connection with Spirit, which brings healing in its own right, and commitment and clarity to all our forgiveness work.
I’ve just been in silent joining with Jesus, contemplating ‘God is in my mind’ (part of today’s Lesson title). I let the idea drop deeper and deeper in – God really IS in MY mind! (my true mind, not the split mind). I was then shown to reverse the idea – ‘my mind is in God’. I felt great expansion in my awareness, a lightness, a formlessness. Then it was back to ‘God is in my mind’ and the expansion continued.. I went through many cycles of these 2 ideas and was so aware of how they were working together to promote opening.
As I write now, the sense of expansion and lightness is still here, and form seems to be less dense.
SPACE FOR ANGER (24th January 2021)

I led Anger, Peace and Miracles for a study group yesterday, the 4th time I’ve offered this workshop. It leaves me with great clarity about the healing power of giving space for anger to be seen and felt and owned. The aim is not to be comfortable with screaming our rage, but at being comfortable with giving it permission to come into our awareness without judgement.

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The Course says, ‘You may wonder why it is so crucial that you look upon your hatred and realise its full extent..’ It’s stating here that we do have hatred and there is a ‘full extent’ to be seen. We can’t forgive what we’re not aware of; we can’t forgive what we’ve projected out and don’t see as coming from our minds; we can’t forgive intense fury if we think it’s just mild annoyance..
Our split minds are traumatised, and we can think of the core aspects of this trauma as being guilt, grief, anger and fear. They are entwined, and as we focus on healing any of the aspects we automatically bring all aspects to the light. Working on anger is a brilliant way forward, as it is loosening our attraction to the favoured ego device for promoting ‘I’m right and you’re wrong..’.
There were opportunities yesterday for participants to express anger and it was moving and healing indeed:
One, a ‘mature lady’ who has always seen herself as ‘not an angry person’ – and maybe proud of that – dived in the deep end with a vigorous repetition of ‘I’m so angry at you, how could you, how dare you’ (the starting point of expression that was offered). She reported later that over the lunch break she felt really ‘discombobulated’, not being able to find things in her kitchen etc, but was so grateful to start lifting the lid off this hidden part of her mind.
Another, who does feel great anger inside her and has been fearful that it would overwhelming/out of control if expressed, went flat out into screaming mode, letting it fly.. a gift for the participant and a gift for the group. When we put Spirit in charge, all is safe.
NOT BOWING DOWN TO PAIN (16th January 2021)

I feel inspired to offer some quotes about pain from Lesson 190, as I continue a masterclass on healing through my tooth situation. 4 weeks on from the redoing of a root canal procedure, and after oodles of healing focus, there is still soreness and a slightly puffy cheek. I’ve faced fear again and again as the situation allows deep cornerstone dread that ‘something is terribly wrong’ to surface, and as a result I feel ever more powerfully with Spirit.

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Each night I go to bed with an all-encompassing call on God, bringing every symptom and choice for separation to Him. ‘In God, with God, to God, choosing God’.. repeating and repeating, opening my mind, and calling again at any time I wake in the night. In my afternoon meditations, I’m calling on the Great Rays, the Presence of Light. I’m so grateful for the motivation for this determined and consistent practice.
This morning I attended a wonderful workshop led by Jennifer Hadley on visioning, and the enquiry led me to see that the tooth healing masterclass is an invitation to let go of the entire principle of projecting guilt onto the body. The Course teaches that our experience is what we’re currently desiring: if there’s pain in the body it’s there in preference to being seen and felt in the mind.
I can feel a real shift about this, a new willingness to be present with the pain in my mind so that it can be released, and I’m turning to Lesson 190 as mighty support. Simply typing the quotes below is balm and strength.
I hope they support you too:
‘Pain is wrong perspective. When it is experienced in any form, it is a proof of self-deception’
‘It (pain) is a nightmare of abandonment by an Eternal Love’
‘Pain is a sign illusions reign in place of truth. It demonstrates God is denied, confused with fear, perceived as mad, and seen as traitor to Himself’
‘If God is real, there is no pain. If pain is real, there is no God’
‘It is your thoughts alone that cause you pain. Nothing external to your mind can hurt or injure you in any way’
‘The world you see does nothing. It has no effects at all. It merely represents your thoughts. And it will change entirely as you elect to change your mind, and choose the joy of God as what you really want’
NEEDING THEIR NEEDINESS (11th January 2021)

We had a beautiful and rich workshop on Saturday, the Self Enquiry Bonanza. There were many miracles, and I’d like to share a couple with you.
One of the exercises was about bringing ‘inaccessible’ emotions to the surface, and a volunteer, I’ll call her P, chose to work with ‘neediness’. Another participant demonstrated an expression of neediness for P and the group, and then P was invited to have a go herself.

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It was powerful indeed, and near the end of the exercise P shared that for the first time she really ‘got’ what projection means. P realised that she places her neediness in others, and then is overwhelmed by their clamours for help. Although it’s been very uncomfortable, it’s obviously been the mind’s preference instead of seeing the neediness in P, and it being caused by the choice to reject God. P was so grateful for this seeing, and now she has the opportunity to withdraw the projections from others and go to Spirit to heal the neediness that’s inherent in desiring separation.
Another participant was deeply moved by this exercise and shared that she looked after her disabled partner for many years, never realising that she needed his neediness to block awareness of her ‘separation neediness’. This was a miraculous shift, opening the way for a reassessment of all her relationships.
Feedback from this participant:
‘My thoughts & beliefs about myself were that of a strong & independent person caring for others. When the Holy Spirit showed me, through the neediness dramatisation.. I saw how I projected my neediness onto others, so I wouldn’t have to look at my own pathetic neediness/strength & keep my separation from God.. I learned to see myself in truth & now I can ask Holy Spirit to show me how to help appropriately’.
Anyone drawn to the ‘caring professions’ may well have entrenched ‘separation neediness’ to heal. I absolutely acknowledge this has been a central aspect of my healing..I so enjoyed sharing this bonanza of looking, and the wonderful and deep processes that the participants engaged in.
REVIEW OF ALL PEACE NO PIECES BY JACKIE LORA JONES

What a fabulous book! Deftly and engagingly written, this A Course in Miracles overview is a clear and accessible welcome for newcomers and also a deep invitation for long time students to contemplate the truly radical nature of the Course. Jackie, Cindy Renard’s sister, really understands the teaching and gives examples from her own life which show she absolutely puts it into practice.
I had many insights along the way, and particularly appreciated the no nonsense statement that much of what we call forgiveness, even as students, is actually based on separation ideas. If we let something go because we want peace, there is still a ‘me’ that’s letting go. If we see that forgiveness benefits both parties, there is a ‘me and you’. If we feel compassion for another, we are judging someone as different from us, as having a rough time, so again it’s acknowledging separation. Jackie insistently and consistently brings us to the Course principle that real forgiveness is forgiving the mind’s decision for the ego, and our practice is to allow the undoing of the belief that anyone is separate from us.
I learnt most from the chapter, ‘Our life scripts are written’…

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where Jackie quotes Ken Wapnick’s analogy of two almost infinitely large libraries of video tapes, fear scripts and forgiveness scripts. From outside time the sleeping mind chooses fear or forgiveness. Jackie succinctly points out that all scripts are occurring simultaneously within a fixed system and have already happened. All we can do is jump scripts by choosing the Holy Spirit as our teacher. We mentally review His correction scripts (practice forgiveness), and this prepares us to awaken from the dream.
Jackie is great company and I found it a real pleasure to see the Course through her eyes. She encompasses the practicality and the metaphysical genius of ACIM in a warm and inspiring read. I highly recommend it!
All Peace No Pieces is the first book in Jackie’s planned ‘The Wisdom Series’, going deeper into aspects of the teaching. I will be looking out for the next one..

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